It took me thirty-eight years to understand that it wasn't so much that you didn't raise me as it was that you couldn't raise me. That there was a difference in ability rather than responsibility and that truthfully, choosing life, was the most important gift you could have ever given me. It was in that … Continue reading To the woman who gave me life but couldn’t raise me – Happy Mother’s Day and Thank You.
Is it possible I get nothing from my family but reverse psychology? Is it possible that every lesson I have learned in how to be who I am -- was solely by watching them be who they should not have been? Do you ever feel as if you do not have a place, a place of … Continue reading Am I a product of Reverse Psychology?
Its incredible how the mind and heart can build up a moment before its about to happen. Its as if a protective shield starts to encase you, or reminders of what to say or not say, how to act, or not to act run wild in your brain. This didn't happen with me, maybe I … Continue reading Excuse me, do I know you?
Today, is one of those days when I find myself wondering what exactly was done to me to make me the way I am. Afraid to trust, needing control, terrified to lose love, to gain it, undeserving of it even. I know it stems from him, and it makes me hate him, and it makes … Continue reading Nothing like you…